If you are serving or leading in ministry in a voluntary or vocational capacity, sometimes you can feel cynical, dry, frustrated, disillusioned, and lonely. Rather than pushing through and hoping things change on their own, or making a decision that could be harmful to you or those around you, I’d love to be a person with whom you could process.
Let me first say; I’m just a beggar trying to show other beggars where the bread is. I’ve not “achieved” anything, other than recognizing that I cannot sustainably live this life solely in my strength. Also, I’m not “above” any of this, but I do know what it feels like to feel alone and afraid to admit the truth in this area.
I’d love to chat with you:
If you feel lonely, and you don’t know who you can talk to.
If you’re looking for someone to process your feelings with, and you feel like no one will be able to understand or relate.
If you are not sure who might be a “safe place” to process your pain with.
If you have questions or doubts, and simply want to express them to another person.
If you feel empty and are expected to give out spiritually to others.
If you’ve grown secretly resentful toward the people or ministry you are serving.
If you feel like you want to quit but the security of your salary or status of your position is too difficult to walk away from.
If you don’t know how you feel about God, and yet your work is under the auspices of serving Him.
It is too easy to choose to disregard the feelings you have as embarrassing, (“no one can know I actually feel and think this way”) insignificant, (“I can continue to do my work although I feel this way”) or fleeting(“these feelings and thoughts will go away on their own”).
This doesn’t have to be the case. Too many people are trudging through their daily response to the “call of God” in ministry. We say things to ourselves like, “ministry is hard, so it’s not about me always feeling happy and fulfilled.” Both of those statements are, indeed, true, but there is a source of joy and meaningfulness that can be a reality in the midst of our serving.
The weight of the responsibility to serve or lead others in ministry while personally in a deficit spiritually is more than the human heart can handle. Resentment, bitterness, frustration, judgment, and disconnection are practically inevitable.
The number of pastors, leaders, or ministry workers that have resigned, burned out, made detrimental choices that have hurt themselves or others is alarming, at best. For many that serve in ministry, the feeling of loneliness can be too much to bear.
I don’t mean to be presumptuous in any way, but I’d be honored to be a listening ear and a source of conversation if you are walking through a difficult season. Send me a message, note, email, or whatever. I’m more than happy to connect.
I know we may not know each other well, if at all, but know that you don’t have to walk through this season alone.